Sometimes I live buried in memories and hopes for the future. I think of the past, feel a tinge of bittersweet melancholy- and then I think about what will happen in my life in the future. Where is the present? Am I living for the future that I can't ever experience (by definition anyway because the future now will be the present later)? Do I do things for the better future? Do I want things now because I think those things will make me happy in the future? What if I am wrong?
The title of this post is "where is that photo" because I started writing this blog post as I was looking for one particular photo I took with my friend late in the night when we were hanging out. The memory of it is rather blurred but it is unforgettable nonetheless. I didn't find this photo because I am sure it got lost as I was switching from my old Samsung phone to Blackberry, but I was really hoping to find it because it would be a concrete reminder of my friendship with this person and how incredibly close we felt then that night (and still do).
The fact is... I haven't seen my friend for a long time. We keep in touch and we appreciate each other, think of each other from time to time but at this present moment, all I hold are the memories of us. In this case, what does it mean to be present with this particular relationship?
Even though it is difficult to make connections with new people, maybe based on the fact that I once connected with my friend I mentioned above, there is a chance for me to make new connections. I should stop being so stubborn and open up more to people who are around me now. Perhaps that is my present way to service and cherish the past relationships I had with my old friends... and when the opportunity comes, I will see my friend again.
When the opportunity comes, you will see your friend again. Thank you for providing your thoughts and your self-expresssion to the world. It brightens up days, although people forget yo tell you.
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